Us

I wasn't really reading the posts for a few days but thn just read today and I wish I hadn't. Everything is too relatable and although I had those exact same thoughts in my head, it was bearable because I can choose what I want to analyse in my head and what I choose to ignore. But when it's all written plainly, it just hits me hard and suddenly and it's all just sad. That people have to leave you eventually. Like humans are suppose to stay away from things that threaten our survival and so it only makes sense that we protect ourselves from getting hurt.
But why is that even though everybody knows that everyone will eventually leave you, be it because of death of separation ir whatsoever, we still let ourselves get close to each other and subject ourselves to the inevitable pain that comes after?
Even though we will all be leaving each other eventually, we still choose to ignore that because this moment is what counts. The fact that you have actually let down your guard and let yourself potentially get hurt by someone is you letting people in.
Hestia is a squad and it always will be. No matter what happens. So guys whatever time we have together lets all cherish it and make the best of it. I can predict 2 occasions when I'm definitely going to cry because those 2 times, it will hit me again how much I love you people and how close we are to the end of it all no matter how much we deny it. At the end of CLC, it's going to mark a new beginning for Hestia and Ma'ams will POP almost as soon as CLC is over so even though I cannot imagine a life without Ma'ams, I'll try to survive. Thanks Hestia for everything.